Bitterness.
Each word, a slap.
Each consonant, piercing.
Bursting in like a winter’s storm,
you permeated into our lives.
We wanted to help you,
but we only came to fear you.
Many shook their heads in pity.
Some avoided you.
Others talked about you.
Contempt.
Each gesture, scornful.
Each insult, stinging.
My attempts to talk to you
only seemed to anger you more.
You terrified me. Yet I yearned.
To see. To know. To understand.
I knew you were frustrated.
Your disease, unforgiving.
Slowly devouring.
I knew you were discouraged.
Your body, powerless.
Slowly succumbing.
But why wouldn’t you let us care for you?
Desperation.
Each day, the same.
Each encounter, fruitless.
You turned us away again and again.
Until one day I confronted you.
I asked you why.
And you told me.
I know you don’t really care. This is only your job.
My job.
It all made sense.
The bitterness. The coldness. The distancing.
I understood.
Stepping forward,
leaving behind the pride, the decorum,
my arms enclosed around you.
The fear escaping my racing heart
only after you made a move to wipe your eyes.
You then collapsed into me.
My shoulder, an insulation
to the sound of choked sobs.
You never said a word.
But in your cry I heard your anguish.
I heard desolation.
I heard relief.
Things were never the same after that.
Your bitterness was gone.
Your words, softer.
Your eyes, warmer.
You allowed us to care for you,
remaining strong even
as your disease progressed.
Until one day, like winter’s snow,
the seasons beckoned for you to leave.
But even then, as you faded away,
you reminded me of the day everything changed–
The day I gave you the hug.
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Categories: All Poetry, Medical Poetry, Medicine



What so many patients need and rarely get.
You captured the scene so well – I felt it and lived it… again. Beautifully written Phoebe!
Thank you, Rob. I really appreciate it. 🙂
Your poetry is as beautiful as your person. I wish you were my doctor…but, in a sense, through your poetry, you are.
Thank you for your kind words, Joan. 🙂 🙂
Soooo so powerful! Deeply moving!
🙂 <3
This is so sweet………….and it reminds me of something that the years since my Mother died had “erased” – which was a similar incident when my frustration at her not allowing me to help her with her care resulted in me just giving her a huge hug. It broke the barrier – she told me later she felt I was just doing things for her because I thought I “should” as her daughter……but the hug showed her it was because of love….she had Alzheimers and didn’t always “get” what was going on. Anyway, your poem certainly touched me…………..and gave me back a memory I’d tucked away many years ago.
Pam
Wow…it is so touching to hear about what happened between you and your mother. No doubt that moment made a difference. I am very sorry for your loss, though. 🙁 Big hug <3
Thanks for the hug! You know how we feel about hugs around my house! 🙂
I want a hug just from reading this! Such a beautiful sentiment and sad scene yet comforting at the same time….I love this Puppy! 🙂
<3 🙂 😀